Every Ramadhan most of us would want to change for the better. Some started to don the hijab, praying 5 times a day, wake up for qiyam, reading the Al-quran and reflecting on it. So here is my take on Ramdhan Reflections on Surah An-Nisa as I recall my past sins and praying so hard that ALLAH will forgive them and accept my repentance.
 When angels take the souls of those who die in sin against their souls, they say: “In what (plight) were ye?” They reply: “Weak and oppressed were we in the earth.” They say: “Was not the earth of Allah spacious enough for you to move yourselves away (from evil)?” Such men will find their abode in Hell―what an evil refuge!
 Except those who are (really) weak and oppressed―men, women, and children who have no means in their power, nor (a guide-post) to direct their way.
 For these, there is hope that Allah will forgive: for Allah doth blot out (sins) and forgive again and again.
 He who forsakes his home in the cause of Allah, finds in the earth many a refuge, wide and spacious: should he die as a refugee (away) from home for Allah and His Messenger, His reward becomes due and sure with Allah: and Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
[Lessons from this verses]
We are sometimes caught in a job that doesn’t allow us to don the hijab and provide time to perform our fardhu prayers.
And we easily say that “I need this job to support my family and they don’t allow me to don the hijab”.
“My employer doesn’t allow me to perform my prayers during working hours”
But little did we know that the earth ALLAH has created for us is wide and full of abundance. Have we seek in it what we can do to release ourselves from sinning every single day for the sake of ALLAH? Ask yourself “Who is Al-Razak?” Who provides you?
It’s time we stop giving ourselves excuses, get out from our comfort zones and explore the bounties of Allah which HE has created for us. HE knows and will reward us for our sacrifices. Have faith.